What I Wish Someone Had Told Me Before I Almost Committed Suicide at 24

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When I was 24, I very nearly killed myself. I was living in Ibiza at the time, in a very nice villa, on the quiet east coast of the island. The villa was right next to a cliff. In the midst of depression, I walked out to the edge of the cliff and looked at the sea and at the rugged limestone coastline, dotted with deserted beaches.

It was the most beautiful view I had ever known, but I didn’t care. I was too busy trying to summon the courage needed to throw myself over the edge. I didn’t. Instead, I walked back inside and threw up from the stress of it.

What I Wish I Had Known Before I Almost Committed Suicide at 24

Three more years of depression followed. Panic, despair—a daily battle to walk to the corner shop without collapsing to the ground.

But I survived. I am days away from being 38. Back then, I almost knew I wasn’t going to make it to 30. Death or total madness seemed more realistic. But I’m here. Surrounded by people I love. And I am doing a job I never thought I’d be doing. And I spend my days writing stories that are really guide books, the way all books are guide books.

I am so glad I didn’t kill myself, but I continue to wonder if there is anything to say to people at those darkest times. Here’s an attempt.</p…

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